Shelagh starting the new year feeling terribly blue and coping with the post-Christmas chaos

This is Shelagh Robinson, not only not coping with Christmas but not coping with after Christmas. Everywhere’s chaotic, I can’t find the cases for these things, putting things away is just not happening because I can’t concentrate on it. I’ve never liked Christmas basically, it’s always brought bad memories of unhappy Christmases and there have always been some tears for me at Christmas, but this has been really awful and looking around me at the apartment and the state it’s in, I’m reminded so firmly about the people I care about with dementia who became gradually not able to cope with keeping their home in the way it should be kept. Paul (?) can help an awful lot , but he’s not as capable as he was and my cleaner who comes fairly regularly because she isn’t well and isn’t keeping on top of it. So I’m starting the new year feeling terribly blue. But at least I’ve managed to tidy up a couple of my desk drawers, so my desk looks ok at least but I feel that I’m fighting a real losing battle with the effects of dementia, and the effects dementia is having on my home. So this is rather a sad new year, dementia diaries. Happy new year everybody.